During my hiatus. Why I hate med changes.

8-5-17

Why I hate med changes.

Fear of change

New pills taste bad

Can't sleep

Sleep too much

Head fog all day

I get easily winded now, even if I'm sitting still

I can't focus long enough to write

Lost focus again.

My clothes feel like sandpaper,

or they're on fire. 

They feel like fiery sandpaper.

I can't get comfortable

I get too comfortable and I can't sleep. WTF?!

Every voice, bark, sound, feels like rubbing sandpaper clothes on my teeth.

Lights are too bright.

Screens are too dark

Pokestops are too far away.

I cry for no reason.

Or every reason.

Pens feel weird in my hand and I can't read my own writghighng?

My brain is hyperactive but my body, especially my fine motor skills are sluggish and awkward.

My teeth have a headache.

Too sad.

Too feely.

Not enough patience.

Tried to catch a mama cat and three, six week old kittens, instead caught a different mama and five, four week old kittens. All while acting like a crazy person to my neighbor, while trying to assure her I wasn't her crazy neighbor.

I'm overwhelmed with life.

I keep disassociating.

Nobody told me when we merged our families there'd be this much laundry. Or pets. 

I'm not hungry or thirsty.

I'm lonely. 

Even in this crowded house.

Even in my crowded head.

And cotton mouth.